Finn's Memorial Episode

There was some anticipation for this episode.  I've had tearful moments with Glee before, but tonight we all knew it was going to be sad.  We knew the actors would be crying.  Yet, still this television show gave me tears.  Perhaps a good thing, but that didn't matter as much as the comments someone else said about the actor who was not longer able to play Finn.
See Cory Monteith medicated himself with drugs.  He died from an overdose.  Many have made comments about it over the last few months...how to handle it with the Emmys, whose fault, the whys.  Oddily or greatly, the Glee writers decided this didn't matter.  They decided to just celebrate the life and impact that Finn had on the characters.  Yes, the characters questioned their role in not telling Finn that he was a good guy and loved, but no one questioned him.
Today is the anniversary of Jerrese's wedding to David.  At David's funeral, there were tons of questions. There was doubt about what could have been done.  Some saying he was probably mentally imbalanced since childhood.  Many were vocal about not being there enough for David.
So this woman sees me watching Glee and being teary,  says something about it only being a television show. (something that I've never understood because I watch tv for entertainment of emotions out of my normal daily life even if they are not positive)  I run up the stairs during the commercial to kinda explain and she starts in talking about how Cory should have reached out to someone.  People should always reach out to someone.  I tried to say...the show isn't about Cory it is about Finn.  The show isn't talking about how he died.  Yet, her focus was on Cory only.  Knowing it wasn't a convo I wanted to hear, I tried to start going back to not miss much of the show.  Frustratingly, I wasn't fast enough.  I still heard her say that people like that should always keep looking for someone to help them.
UGH!!!! Damnit!  People who are self medicating or having a hard time finding worth in life do not need to search because every no or perceived no pushes one to medicate more or believe in worthlessness more.  I don't know about Cory...I really don't and it isn't important for me to know.  I do know David did all that he could think of to try to show love...offered it.  He just didn't want to try for the thing that might work because of secrets, pain, or failure.  I know...I have felt and experienced the same...even with trying for help.  See that woman who said Cory didn't work hard enough also said David didn't try hard enough...she also said I didn't work hard enough.  It is a daily sometimes hourly challenge to face at times.  Sure I know God loves me, but I have to tell myself that.  I know I have friends...but I have to believe that.  The same is true for everyone else who struggles.  When I reach out to a friend and get no answer..it hurts.  When I reach out to God and hear answers I don't understand...it hurts. People have got to stop thinking that it is asking for help...cause you can't ask if you don't know what to ask...you just know who need to be loved back, or to numb the pain, or to feel that worth...or something that others or yourself just can't seem to grasp at this time in life.