I didn't cheat!

You Are A: Duck!

Found in many lakes and ponds, ducks are a common site the world over. Known for their famous quack, ducks tend to congregate in flocks or go off on their own in pairs. As a duck, you may seem friendly at times but will not hesitate to bite if someone is bothering you. Your ability to swim and preference for being in crowds are some reasons why you are a duck.

You were almost a: Puppy or a Lamb
You are least like a: Chipmunk or a MouseCute Animals Quiz

Now Open/Closing

(yeah I know overload for posts but my mind has really been spinning lately)

Every Sunday when I drive onto the island, I notice the places that have "NOW OPEN" signs. I also pay attention to the ones that say "for sale" but they don't make me as excited. Today, I was thinking about how more places have their "open" signs, but with that I'm wondering if we are really seeing more of a closed feeling again on the island. As everyone's trash is no longer on the street, doors and fences replaced, wiring for electronics in place, and island activites less promoted, are we being less open and loving to our neighbors? I felt guilty of it when I didn't even say hello to the other person getting gas at the gas station today. Such a simple gesture but I was too wrapped up in myself to be able to say hello. This is NOT what I want for myself or the island.
Yet, in the comfort of my church, I was excited with the hope, love, and care that is there this week. It didn't bother me one time to have to climb around to try to work at my desk. I enjoyed knowing these people had come to help make a difference for Christ on the island through so many different ways. Seeing how much had already been done was such an encouragement. It makes me want to be a better servant of God. Why must it take a mission group to remind me or the additude to have? Those women who were sleeping in my office were tired but very willing to do more and adapt. I love that spirit! I need to help to instill that spirit into others. Now to pray to figure out how.

Breast Cancer SUCKS

I've had three people very special to me that have had to suffer with breast cancer. My friend, Denise, is currently dealing with it. Her doctor want's to cut away part of what identifies her as a beautiful woman. IT sucks! I've been think of her and Martha every day. Tuesday I had to sit in the shower because I was thinking about the loss of Martha so much. God allows women to suffer with this and then still lets them die. GRRRRRRRR.
Maybe we shouldn't examine ourselves because really knowing you have it doesn't really help to survive.

Why I need to be on The Biggest Loser.

Last Saturday, I went and stood in this long line for a crazy amount of time, just to audition for The Biggest Loser. Such an odd thing to be at a point in life to admit. When I found out that they were going to interview in Houston, I began to plan then to go. I had to figure out if I could do it and this VBS training, but since we aren't doing the VBS materials now I could go. The process was long and probably pointless to be in line for all that time and not really see any results from it, but it did help me realize the reasons and what has helped me see that I needed to audition. Now, I should try to figure out how to also submit a recording, but that sound tricky.
Even though I have been fat for most of my life, I haven't had negative feeling about it my entire life. There are many times when I haven't even thought about it. Of course there are those rare exceptions as weell when i didn't participate because of my weight. Oddily, that wasn't at camp doing the ropes course. See, I believe the reason for that is I was so surrounded by love of others and God that I knew nothing that could hold me back. I need the biggest loser to be able to put that love and learning within myself.
Reasons:
1. The group setting with large people all learning about it would be good for me. I know my lack of balance isn't just a weight thing, but it is harder because I feel that is all others can see.
2. Food not being the central part of building community. I know I eat is social setting a whole lot more because it is fun. I can't change this on my own.
3. Doctors don't make much sense and don't seem to really care. This would all me to be with a doctor's care and medical guidance that make sense with my stupid meds.
4. If I don't have the choice, then I'm sure I can learn to live without it. I also can probably learn to cook. I need to learn that I am worth the time and effort that is involved with cooking.
5. There are so many questions and answers about diets and exercises. How wonderful it could be to have something created to fit my needs and likes. It would be great to be able to ask questions without laughter or embarrassment.
6. I would be forced to take care of myself because that is where all focus would be.

Perhaps, someday I'll be abe to figure out how to implement these tools in every day life.